These past few months have been rather difficult for me. Emotional turmoil going on within me and a battle for my spirit between good and evil has been raging hard and long. The devil has been trying to ensnare me in his lies and I have been battling it for a long time. The lies he has been telling me, the poor influences he has tried to put in my life to discourage me and the emotional turmoil have torn me apart. I have cried more tears in the past three or four months than I had in a whole year of homeschooling.
Then I found out one of my close friends-who was only eight-teen-passed away. Not too long after that, we found out my aunt-who had cancer-went downhill really quickly. Exactly three weeks to the day my friend died, my aunt also passed into the arms of Jesus.
I hadn’t been getting very much sleep, and I was crying a lot. I call this last month my “Valley of Tears” Now, for those of you who don’t know what the valley of tears is, I will tell you.
As described in Wikipedia this is what the ‘Valley of Tears’ is: “The Valley of Tears (sometimes called Vale of Tears Battle) is the name given to an area in the Golan Heights after it became the site of a major battle in the Yom Kippur War.” Though the battle raged for only four days, there were many deaths. According to Wikipedia: “Israel suffered between 2,521 and 2,800 killed in action. An additional 7,250 to 8,800 soldiers were wounded.” It was a terrible battle.
And even though there were only two passings in my life-within a month-it was still tragic. The hurt and pain I felt was terrible. I still hurt now, but God is healing my heart. And with the healing that is coming, there is also peace and joy.
This song has run through my mind many times throughout this time in my life. And, now that the healing is taking place, and joy is returning, I am ready for whatever is to come next in my life.
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