Have you ever felt lost? Not lost as in “Where am I?” but lost as in “What on earth is going on?”
Yeah, I think we’ve all been there at some point in our lives! I’m there right now. I’m constantly saying “Lord, I have no clue what’s going on right now, or why it’s going like this. I need you to know, I’m having a really hard time trusting you, but Lord, I know at the same time, that you will work everything out for my good. Please, just give me the amount of joy and peace I need to get through today. Help me see what you have for me today, even though the future is uncertain right now.”
I think it’s safe to say we have all said a prayer similar to that at some point. I am one that isn’t used to change. Graduating from high school and trying to find a job and figure out my life has set my emotions on a path of chaos and confusion.
I was talking with a girl from church tonight, and she said something that really hit me. She said “It’s tough, because when you try to go ahead with something ahead of God’s timing for you, then it just sets you into anxiety and heartache.” It’s true.
As hard as it may be to just sit and let God pave a smooth path, I find, all too often, myself running ahead and trying to forge my own way through the tall, uncertain grass. And take it from a farm girl, running through thick grass isn’t fun. There are mole hills and holes all over just waiting for you to trip and fall in one and end up hurt. Just like the Devil whose lying in wait while we try to go ahead of Christ. He’s just waiting for us to trip and fall and get mad and give up.
So, I guess this is the main thing. Don’t give up not ever. don’t let idleness get you discouraged. sometimes God sets ot times for us to ‘just be’ and soak him and his spirit and word up while he prepares us for our time of ‘doing’. I know it’s hard. I’m not the kind of girl to just sit. I like being on the go and doing. But, I’ learning ever so slowly that right now, if God just wants this time to be a time of rest, then that’s what it needs to be.
Now that I think back, I remember that I had said in passing that it would be nice to have some time to relax after school and everything was done. NOW I feel like a ninny for all the complaining i’ve been doing. God is only giving me what I asked for! #Oops. LOL
Well, those are my thoughts!!
Love you my lovelies!!