When I got home from my trip on Sunday, I had all these grand plans to be writing everyday on here. I had plans made out and was so excited.
Then Monday came, and I sat in front of my computer not knowing what to say-despite my pre-written plans.
Sometimes there just aren’t words. I’ve learned more in the last couple of months sometimes all you can say is “I don’t know whats to say”.
I came across this song a few weeks before I left on my trip not knowing just how much I was going to need it. The first verse of the song goes:
“I have no words to say
Don’t know what I should pray
God, I need You
God, I need You
Oh Lord, my faith is tired
And tears fill up my eyes
But I will trust You, I will trust You”
These became critical words to me. There have been more times this summer than I can count that I’ve had to fall on my knees and say “Lord, I don’t know what to say right now. It just hurts too much.” And the amazing thing is, he meets me there. He hears my cry and sees my pain. In fact, I’ve come to the point where when I just don’t know what to say, I turn this song on and just sing it till all my hurt has just been poured out upon God’s alter.
“But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry to him reached his ears.” Psalm 18:6 (NLT)
It has taken me a long time in my life to be able to cry out to God like this. It’s easier to get mad and angry rather than admit that you don’t know what to say or how to handle the pain your feeling.
I love the song “Make a Way” also by I Am They . It goes completely hand-in-hand with the above song. The second verse and chorus go:
“And when I’m in the valley, You will be my comfort
And when I’m at the end of me, I find You there
When I’m in the battle, You will be my present peace
Cause You brought me this far, You brought me this far
If You brought me this far
Wherever you lead me, I know you won’t leave me
Wherever you call me, You will make a way
Wherever we’re going, I will be holding
To the promise you have made
You will make a way
My God will make a way”
Here’s the Song if you want to listen to it! (I encourage you to listen to both!)