Recently, I’ve been trying to up my blogging game. But I’ll be honest, I’ve been struggling with it.
Struggling with what to write, how to say what I DO want to write. Struggling with how much I do-or don’t-write. Struggling with wanting to expand Unfading Beauty Ministries but not really knowing how. Just…struggling.
I’ve had thoughts like “what if this isn’t what I’m supposed to be doing?” despite the fact that I’ve had positive feedback.
I struggle with some of the numbers of people responding to, well…everything.
One of my brilliant friends and I were talking and I was telling her about my struggling with not having enough feedback or responses or anything and I told her that I’m having a hard time feeling successful at times and she told me “Kristen, it depends upon how you are measuring your success. If you’re measuring it by numbers, then you may feel like you aren’t being successful, but if you measure it by the fact that even if only one or two people are reading, but it’s changing their lives, then success would be achieved.”
I think that struggles are a hard topic for people in the church to broach. Why? Because Christians don’t like looking “weak” or maybe it’s just that we don’t want to bother people with our problems. We’re supposed to be strong and “suck it up” and “just deal with it” like the good church people we are.
I would like to challenge that mindset. I would like to suggest that we have it all wrong. We NEED to admit when we’re struggling. We NEED to admit that we aren’t doing so good. Why? Because then God can use that person to speak a balm of healing words into our dry, burdened souls.
I’ll be honest with you, I’ve dreaded writing this. I’ve thought to myself “this blog is supposed to be uplifting. I don’t want to write something that’s so dismal.” But, as I sat down in front of my computer, I felt a nudging in my spirit saying “Kristen, it’s time.” So, here we are!
Admitting to people that I’m not okay when they ask me how I’m doing is something that I only recently stopped doing. or the longest time I believed that no one actually cared. That they were just asking how I was out of social propriety. I actually walked through the majority of my teen years believing this, and because of it, I carried a lot of unnecessary pain and anxiety.
“And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you.” 1 Peter 5:10 (ESV)
Thankfully our struggles aren’t all for naught.
“More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.” Romans 5:3-5 (ESV)
With all that said, ladies, don’t carry all your baggage on your own. When someone at church asks you how you are, tell them. Be honest You never know what God has waiting for you in the form of healing words.
Also, don’t let yourself get so run down that you are unable to function. It’s not worth the pain it produces. I’ve been working so hard on some projects for the ministry, I let myself get completely, physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. To the point where writing feels somewhat like a chore. It’s not worth it! Don’t let yourself go so much that the things you enjoy most, start to feel like a burden. If you let that happen enough times, you’ll eventually end up resenting that thing you previously loved so much!
It’s all about Unfading Beauty. It all ties in to your spiritual well-being and who you were created to be as a woman of God…One of which wasn’t to be a run-down mess of emotions!