As some of you may know, my teen years weren’t the easiest. Between school and boys and trying to figure out who I was and where I fit, it was just plain hard.
Finding peace is something that I have been trying to do for, well, years. I never really owned up to a lot of the anger that was festering in me. I’d say I’ve given it up to God, but then, at any point and time, I’d regurgitate any and all of it.
Between that and mistakes I’ve made on my own, I’ve carried a lot of pain and shame.
I think that everyone goes through things like that. We are prone to do things we wish we hadn’t done, said things we wish we hadn’t said and had things done or said to us that reached to the deepest core of our hearts, grabbed hold and wrung our hearts out till nothing but anger was left.
Have you ever watched a movie where one of the characters was in some kind of recovery or support group? What is the very first thing that is said? “Hello, my name is ______ and I’m [a] __________” Why do they make people say these things? Well, because admission is the first step to getting through anything. And admitting it aloud makes it more real to a person. once we’ve heard ourselves admit something aloud, there’s really no going back-or maybe there is, but from personal experience, that just makes it ten times worse…
Something I discovered recently is that it is best to find someone you trust and respect and tell them what’s going on.
“Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.” James 5:16
This past week, I have been working on the very same thing. And, I can assure you, that when you admit something-whether it be pent up anger or hurt or anything else, there’s a burden that lifts off of you. You are able to start finding peace.
It shows growth and maturity when a person is able to say “Yes, this is where I am I know I need it needs dealt with.”
Even being able to say “You know what, I’ve been in this place in my life…” in testimony as to how far God has brought you in your spiritual journey. Sometimes it’s hard to do something like that because you are scared what people are going to think of you, but, I’ve learned that more often than not, when you feel nudged t say something, you had better say it, because you don’t know who God is trying to reach through you.
“I will tell everyone about your righteousness. All day long I will proclaim your saving power, though I am not skilled with words. I will praise your mighty deeds, O Sovereign Lord. I will tell everyone that you alone are just.” Psalm 71:15-16
Sometimes it’s hard to persevere, and you feel like you just want to give in. Throw in the towel, but we are called to persevere. To run the race, and by doing so, He is creating in us a testimony of his faithfulness to share with others.
“God blesses those who patiently endure testing and temptation. Afterward they will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12
I want to encourage you, while you must be discerning when you admit sin to someone for accountability while you are working through it, if you know Christ has helped you overcome something, then testify about it! Tell of the good things God has done! You never know who may need to hear your testimony of God’s grace, mercy and salvation!