There are many days that I don’t actually just sit down and work all day on projects and whatnot for Unfading Beauty Ministries. To be quite honest, I generally only spend a few hours in the evening working on stuff-although there’s the odd day that I am working for the better part of the day making phone calls and writing/replying to e-mails or doing research.
I’ve actually been thinking about the current format of how I do things for quite a while, and then last night I was told something that caused me to ask myself: What’s driving you?
As I was scrolling through and approving/replying to comments made on articles, I came across one that I wasn’t too sure what to say. And the more I thought about how to answer, the longer it became, so eventually, I decided just to respond through an e-mail.
While I was replying to the person’s comment and retrieving Bible verses to answer some of the things said, it hit me: This is why I write! I write to open up conversation-be it between me and the reader, the reader and them self and most importantly, the reader and God. I write to spread the love of Jesus. I write so that people can see the mercy and grace he has bestowed upon my life and then desire the same for their lives. I write because I want people to know the good news of Jesus Christ and that he came to die on a cross so that they may be saved from living through eternity in hell. I write so that people can know just how desperately much Jesus loves them. I also write so that those people who already have a relationship with Jesus can be spurred on in their faith. So that they may come to know him and his word better-thus pushing them into deeper communion with him.
Being able to write to this person and openly and honestly share the truth of Jesus’ words reminded me that He is the reason I do this. He is the reason I’m in ministry. He is the reason I’m still here-and why wouldn’t I want to share about the love of the person who has quite literally saved my life more than once?
I’ll be honest, there are times when I have had my heads in the clouds, dreaming of bigger, brighter horizons-some full of fame and glamour. I have beat myself up and told myself “It’s not going your way because you don’t focus enough, you aren’t dedicated enough and you just aren’t good enough to have a successful ministry.” But again last night, I was reminded that this ministry is more than successful. The fact that I get to write an e-mail like the one I did last night reminded me that that is exactly why I do what I do.
Yes, I pray that God will make this ministry flourish and grow-as he has, is and continues to do-but he also reminded me that I need to quite comparing my ministry to someone else’s. My ministry is completely different than anyone else’s.
I want to encourage you to ask yourself “What is driving me?” Is it fame? Recognition? Money? Maybe you’re doing it to show someone up?
I want to leave you with these Bible verses:
“So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.”
1 Corinthians 10:31
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
Proverbs 3: 5-6
Whatever God is leading you to, do it for his glory, trust him and he will make your paths straight!
I love you all so much!
I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Years! Stay tuned, as I have another huge project announcement coming in January!