Over the last while, I have been trying to figure out some things. More specifically, where I’m supposed to go in life.
I was actually supposed to go to college this year however because of my severe allergies I wasn’t able to go.
Long story short, not going made me start questioning my whole life; “Where am I gonna go to school? When am I going to go? Will I ever actually figure out what kind of schooling God wants me to have?”
The more I questioned, the more frustrated I grew.
You may have read in my eBook that when I graduated high school I had convinced myself that everything would just fall into place because of how hard high school was. I thought God would give me an easy ascendance into adulthood…wishful thinking!
Test after test has come and each one has stretched and challenged me more than the last. And just when I thought I was about to break, God gave me exactly the amount of strength I needed to make it through.
The crazy thing is that God almost always does the exact same thing to give me strength. He reminds me of one thing I should already be doing, but often times forget to be doing: Praying.
To bring my heart to him and seeking him for guidance.
The first reminder came when he kept directing Jeremiah 29:13 my way. The New Living Translation (NLT) reads it this way:
“If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.” (Emphasis added)
More recently, as I was sitting at my newly refinished desk, I prayed, “God, speak to me today. I’m sick of reading my Bible and feeling like I’ve not learned anything from you.”
And, as I opened my Bible up to where I left off, I read Luke 11: 5-10
“Then, teaching them more about prayer, he used this story: “Suppose you went to a friend’s house at midnight, wanting to borrow three loaves of bread. You say to him, ‘A friend of mine has just arrived for a visit, and I have nothing for him to eat.’ And suppose he calls out from his bedroom, ‘Don’t bother me. The door is locked for the night, and my family and I are all in bed. I can’t help you.’ But I tell you this—though he won’t do it for friendship’s sake, if you keep knocking long enough, he will get up and give you whatever you need because of your shameless persistence. “And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.”
As I read this, God gently spoke to me. He reminded me that he wants to guide me and to fulfill my heart’s desires, but first, I need to be relentless, shameless-as the passage says- in pursuing him and knocking upon the door asking him to guide my footsteps.
“Seek the kingdom of God above all else, and he will give you everything you need.” (Emphasis added)
He doesn’t promise to give us whatever we want, cause, let’s be honest a lot of the things we want, aren’t always good for us. But, he does promise to give us what we need!
Here’s the thing, it is so easy to pray and thank God when everything is going good. It’s in the bad that it’s hard.
I think it’s due to a couple of things:
First, because we know that God may not take away the pain.
This leads us to reason number 2: We are so enamored with the pain, so swallowed up with how bad things are in the moment, that we don’t think that God could be letting the bad happen because he’s going to use it for his glory later.
But, isn’t that exactly why we pray and seek him? So that he uses the bad for his glory? So that he can reveal himself in a deeper way to us through the pain? And, to take us into a deeper level of relationship with him?
What are some things in your life you need to seek God about?
Or, what are some things you sought after him for in the past? How did he answer you?
I would love to hear! Drop me a line (in the comments or even a personal message if you don’t feel comfortable sharing for all to see!)